inside.my.mind

Well this weekend was very nice, really starting Thursday night it was good if you don’t count work on Friday. Yeah but really good weekend. Had a blast. Not that I did a whole lot, but what I did do was much fun. I even got some sun light.

I am hoping this will keep me going for awhile longer.

Did the first bit of moving today. Mandy came over and we fixed the grill and then took it to her and Leah’s house. I am glad they are getting it I know they will put it to good use.

This coming week is going to suck on the work side. We have to this project that has kept being pushed and pushed. I think it was going to take 6 months to start with. We have worked on it at most 2 months. They want it mostly done by Thursday. It is crap like that that makes my job suck.

So here is to hope for the future.

Today is Melissa’s birthday, so Happy Birthday Sis!

It snowed this weekend quite a bit (for the area I know it is nothing to the people who live in colder places). I am sure everyone would have found it funny watching me try to get my truck out of the drive way. It took me at least six times of backing up the driveway as fast as I could and then pulling back in to the garage to finally make it out. Funny stuff, but fun at the same time.

Wish I had some wonderful news to pass on about how my life is going, but I don’t. I don’t have any great trips, raises, or anything like that to talk about. I feel no better. In fact I think I maybe doing worse. I find myself thinking about things and getting mad. That is not me. I don’t want to turn in to someone like that. Leslie says it is my own fault. Maybe it is. I don’t know. Life just sucks right now. Sorry that all I do is complain.

I am hoping that work with be better this week. Last week about killed me. I don’t know what my problem was. I used to work more than that and it not bother me at all. My boss sent me home Wednesday night because he said I looked really bad, but of course I was back in at 7 the next morning not feeling much better.

I think I am going to switch cell service providers when the Cingular contract is up in May. I am thinking that I will go with Verizon since pretty much everyone that ever calls me has them.

Started the process of rebuilding my movie collection. I have some gift cards left from Christmas so I got Napoleon Dynamite, Office Space, and Ice Age (new one that I did not have before). It was mostly an attempt to make myself feel better.

I think I have been watching to much Firefly. You know how you have internal dialog with yourself. Stuff you would not really say out loud. Well today I caught myself doing it in Chinese.

This has been a really bad week at work. Stayed late the past two night. It was almost 11 last night when I left. They want me there at 7 this morning. I am so tired I know I am going to mess something up.

Well I just looked outside and it looks bad. Roads look slick, but I am out of PTO so I am going to have to try and go anyway. I don’t know if I will even make it out of the drive way, but we will see. If I start sliding to much I guess I will just have to come back home.

So the people came and looked at the house on Saturday. They liked it. It was good. Monday I get a message that the people who were going to buy their house could not do so until June. Disappointment. Today they are back to wanting it and renting their house. They are coming to look again tomorrow at 10 and make an offer I am hoping.

We can’t really go any where on the price. Leslie has to have a set amount and then we are going to give Mom the money she gave us when we bought the house. It will leave basically nothing for me. Oh well such is my life right now.

Went and looked at the apartments I thought I liked today. They are nice, and cost more than I thought they did. This sucks. This whole freaking thing sucks. Sometimes I just want to give up and I don’t know what.

Well I am still here. I wish I could go away and never have to see anyone again, but I know that is not possible. This is going to be my life from now on. I wish I could go back, but I am to hurt.

There are people coming to look at the house Saturday. If they don’t want it then it will be listed.

I just want tell everyone who has been here helping me, praying, and everything else thank you. I don’t know how I would have made it without you all.