Mar 30 2006
Home Matters
Tomorrow at 12:15 I am signing the paper on the house and it will no longer be mine. It makes me sad. It is one of the last steps in the whole process. Who would ever thought my life would come to this. I sure never did, but here I am.
I can’t change it, just have to make the best of it that I can. Who knows what is in store for me now. I had a plan. It is now gone.
Going home this weekend for Granny’s birthday. I have not been in since Christmas. I am not looking forward to it, not because I don’t want to see everyone, I don’t know just will make it seem so much more real? I don’t what I am trying to say. I guess I am just scared. I know no one is going to be mad at me or anything. I guess it is me feeling like a failure and now I have to face all my loved ones. Who knows if that makes sense to anyone but me.
Here is to things getting better.
And here’s to Eric having a good oulook on the future!
In the grand scheme of things this is a minor setback.
Think about some of the people we went to HS with Eric. The ones who barely graduated HS, have been to jail, never went to college or never graduated, and now work at jobs that pay just above minimum wage. Those same people have two or three kids to support etc.
Things could be a lot worse.
Plus being single gets you back into the cool group with Dusty and I.