Apr 25 2006
Sigh
I know you all are getting tied about hearing about me being upset. In fact I have been doing a little writing the old fashiond way just to save you all from having to read all the crap that is going on in my head.
Lately I have been wanting to call Leslie and yell at her that I hope she is happy because she has screwed up my life. I know that is not really fair. I will never do it either. I just get really frustrated and sad sometimes.
You can yell at an empty chair…that has worked for me before. When I know it’s not okay to yell at the person, yelling nonetheless makes me feel better, even if no one is there.
Writing is a good way to vent your emotions and nobody here gets tired of what you write. At least I don’t know of anybody who has said they don’t like what you write and get tired of hearing about it. It’s completely natural to want to yell and make sure she knows she’s really screwed up. Honestly if it were me, I’d react the same way. If she was going to make me miserable, I’d want to make darn sure that she was just as miserable. There’s no way that someone brings me down without coming with me (at least that’s what goes on in my head).
Anyway….long story short, just keep doing what you’re doing. I’m not going to say it will be ok because in all honesty it won’t….at least for the time being. It’s still going to hurt a lot and you’ll have good and bad days, but like many have said before, we’re here for you to do what we can to help. So how can I help?
Take care man. You’re in my prayers.
I don’t think there is anything anyone can do. This is my life.