Oct 19 2006
Felt like a song
I’m not a stranger
No I am yours
With crippled anger
And tears that still drip sore
A fragile flame aged
Is misery
And when our hearts meet
I know you see
I do not want to be afraid
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in
I’m tired of feeling so numb
Relief exists I find it when
I am cut
I may seem crazy
Or painfully shy
And these scars wouldn’t be so hidden
If you would just look me in the eye
I feel alone here and cold here
Though I don’t want to die
But the only anesthetic that makes me feel anything kills inside
I do not want to be afraid
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in
I’m tired of feeling so numb
Relief exists I find it when
I am cut
Pain
I am not alone
I am not alone
I’m not a stranger
No I am yours
With crippled anger
And tears that still drip sore
But I do not want to be afraid
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in
I’m tired of feeling so numb
Relief exists I found it when
I was cut
Guess I am kind of a dark mood? Anyway.
So this week at work I have been getting made fun of about being OCD. Seems people think it is strange that my notebook needs to be in the same place, that I always put my papers stacked neatly and face down in the trash, I alway try to stop on the dollar when pumping gas, I get up once an hour and go to the bathroom, once every other hour I fill my water bottle up, every Tuesday and Thursday I wear white shirts with either gray or black pants. Maybe they have good reasons to be making fun.
white shits??? first I’d like to say impressive…secondly…how do they know you have white shits??? Do you all go and check each others??? Just a thought!
I only wish that I had a clothing plan like you do! It takes me forever to figure out what to wear in the morning. If I had a plan, I might not be so late to work sometimes!