Dec 11 2006
Scrambled
Right now I feel like Ben Folds when he was rockin’ the suburbs and just want to say f…well you can look it up if you really want to know.
I may be moving, not sure yet. My lease is up in a couple of months and from looking at apartments.com my rent is going to go up at least $150 a month, which is unacceptable. I am trying to hold out hope that it will not be that bad. This is stressing me out. The boss ask me if I was just eating beans, implying that I should have more than enough money for the new rent, but I hate to disappoint him, but I am betting he makes at least 30k more than me. That really got on my nerves. At that point I pretty much ignored him. I know he is just trying to help, but at that point I did not need someone to tell me I am being stupid. I could have used a little support. I am getting that feeling that all is crashing around me. I know that most of you will think I am just being a baby and I should get over it and if you are don’t even think about making a comment I don’t need your crap right now it would just make everything worse.
On another wonderful note it seems that my truck is leaking coolant. I don’t know much about it but from what I can tell I am starting to get pretty low. I am going to try and take it some where in the morning and see if they can take a look at it. I may have to be late to work, who knows how I will even be able to get there. I guess I should just be worried about making it to the shop and then worry about the other part later.
My little pathetic world seems to be getting sucked in to a super black hole of darkness. I think more than anything it is the feeling of helplessness I can’t stand. It is kind of like when you trip and know you are going to fall, but do everything you can think of to stop it, but in the end cause yourself more pain than if you had just let it happen.
Good times. I guess compared to what was going on last year at this time I should be ecstatic at how things are going.
An extra $150 a month could buy a lot of stuff. Just two months and you could get a Wii.
You and Dusty should get an apartment together. That way Dusty can get out of the house and back on some broadband, and you can have the satisfaction of kicking his rear in some video game.