inside.my.mind

I have a lead on a new job. It was not something I went looking for, but something I have thought and prayed a lot about. The idea of changing jobs scares the crap out of me, but I emailed my resume tonight and I have a meeting scheduled for Thursday after work.

I have almost psyched myself out of even checking out said lead. The lead would be from someone I used to work with whom they fired, I am guessing, over two years ago. I am very happy he thought of me and was super excited last night. We had dinner and he told me about the job and all that jazz. It was a good time and exciting that I might be able to start a new job.

Today was a good day and work and I ended up feeling like I am betraying the people I work for by even considering checking into another job. Everyone I talk to is very excited that I may get a new job. I am excited, but all the what if’s keep going though my mind and make me more and more apprehensive. As scared as this is making me I am forcing myself to continue to presume and see what happens. After talking to me they may not even want to hire me, or they could love me and dump tons of money in my lap for less work that I am doing now. Who knows? I sure don’t, but I am hoping for some where in the middle of the two.

I guess I will find out in a few days. At the very least it got me to get my resume updated. I also wanted to point out that I now have a poll. It is job related. I will try to make future polls more interesting so go vote and show me that you are interested.