Feb 06 2007
Life keeps coming
Why is it that when on bad thing happens at least 4 more bad things have to happen right after.
I don’t understand. Why does the world have to be the way it is? Why do good people have to hurt just because they don’t match the norm? Why can’t families just love each other instead of hurting each other? Why is it so easy to lose site of what matters in life? When did we get so far off track? Can something good exist in this world or am I searching for something that no longer exists? Why can we do everything right and still end up with nothing? How can we promise things and then pretend like we never did? Why do we feel the need to belittle others? What are we going to do? How are we going to make it? Should we even be allowed to make it?
Before anyone gets any ideas this is not inspired by what I was talking about yesterday. It played some part, but in large this is just life questions not tied to any single thing, but a combination of things. Some times life just weighs more on us than other and this seems to be another one of those times for me.
The boss is out this week at work, lots more stress, so that is not helping my state of mind at all. Speaking of work what the heck is the deal with my boss leaving me to do the builds and related activities? I am a great assistant, that does not mean I should be put in charge of anything. Did I ever talk about that on here? I can’t remember. I have decided that all I will ever be is an assistant. I just don’t have the personality to be a leader, not that I always follow just because others lead, this is relating to work. In the rest of life I don’t follow just because everyone else is doing something.
I am sure everyone is getting tired of reading song lyrics, but I have another to share:
You come to me with scars on your wrist
You tell me this will be the last night feeling like this
I just came to say goodbye
I didn’t want you to see me cry, I’m fine
But I know it’s a lie.
This is the last night you’ll spend alone
Look me in the eyes so I know you know
I’m everywhere you want me to be.
The last night you’ll spend alone,
I’ll wrap you in my arms and I won’t let go,
I’m everything you need me to be.
Your parents say everything is your fault
But they don’t know you like I know you they don’t know you at all
I’m so sick of when they say
It’s just a phase, you’ll be o.k. you’re fine
But I know it’s a lie.
This is the last night you’ll spend alone
Look me in the eyes so I know you know
I’m everywhere you want me to be.
The last night you’ll spend alone,
I’ll wrap you in my arms and I won’t let go,
I’m everything you need me to be.
The last night away from me
The night is so long when everything’s wrong
If you give me your hand I will help you hold on
Tonight,
Tonight.
This is the last night you’ll spend alone
Look me in the eyes so I know you know
I’m everywhere you want me to be.
The last night you’ll spend alone,
I’ll wrap you in my arms and I won’t let go,
I’m everything you need me to be.
I won’t let you say goodbye,
I’ll be your reason why.
The last night away from me,
Away from me.
That goes for me, too. If you need anything, let me know.
I don’t know Eric. I wish I understood why people don’t realize how blessed they are to have people love them. There are tons of people in this world that would do anything in this world to have someone love them unconditionally. I would.