inside.my.mind

Originally uploaded by elemak.

How about Sunday? How nice was it outside? I up loaded some more of the the photos I took this past weekend. This batch is from Sunday. I was getting ready to head home after Leah and Mandy dropped me off and decided I could not go home without a quick walk in the park. I only uploaded three so check them out on flickr.

Now to the choices. Where Leah works has a position open. I keep going back and forth on wanting to try for it or not. I don’t know what I want to do. It is Manager of Information Technology Services, which is not at all programing. I can’t decide if I want to leave software development or not. Heck I don’t know that I could be a manager at all. It seems so far from what my personality is suited for. It scares the crap out of me that a lot of this job is telling people what to do, writing policies, communication, and hardware type stuff.

What if I do go for it and don’t like it if I get it? Do I go crawling back to my current job? What if I do like it, but they don’t like me? Have you seen the stock markets lately? Not good stuff going on. Is now really a good time to be making a move? Could I really be a manager? I just don’t know. I am struggling a lot with this.

I want to be able to do it. I want to have grown that much, but I just don’t know if I can do it. The little kids a church run over me how am I going to handle adults? What if I don’t know enough about the stuff they want. This is really hard for me.