Mar 14 2007
Choices
How about Sunday? How nice was it outside? I up loaded some more of the the photos I took this past weekend. This batch is from Sunday. I was getting ready to head home after Leah and Mandy dropped me off and decided I could not go home without a quick walk in the park. I only uploaded three so check them out on flickr.
Now to the choices. Where Leah works has a position open. I keep going back and forth on wanting to try for it or not. I don’t know what I want to do. It is Manager of Information Technology Services, which is not at all programing. I can’t decide if I want to leave software development or not. Heck I don’t know that I could be a manager at all. It seems so far from what my personality is suited for. It scares the crap out of me that a lot of this job is telling people what to do, writing policies, communication, and hardware type stuff.
What if I do go for it and don’t like it if I get it? Do I go crawling back to my current job? What if I do like it, but they don’t like me? Have you seen the stock markets lately? Not good stuff going on. Is now really a good time to be making a move? Could I really be a manager? I just don’t know. I am struggling a lot with this.
I want to be able to do it. I want to have grown that much, but I just don’t know if I can do it. The little kids a church run over me how am I going to handle adults? What if I don’t know enough about the stuff they want. This is really hard for me.
You can do anything you set your mind to. You are management material if you want to be. Good luck!
It couldn’t hurt to just apply for it. I know what you mean about not being suited for management. I don’t think I would make a good manager.
I love you eric. In my opinion, the description is merely some words put together to place in the paper. I think the best way to put it is Information Technology Manager of equipment and makes sure things are done. Also, someone who can seek on information in order for things to make work.
Either way, I just want you to be happy. Change is scary. Alot has changed just in the past 14 mths. Kinda funny you do not see the man in yourself that I can so easily see. love you…me
Sara: Thank you, but I am not so sure. Could you see me bossing people around? I am just not sure it would work.
Dusty: You are right. If I don’t completely freak out again I think I will write a cover letter this weekend.
Leah: I love you too! Things really have changed in the last 14 or so months. It is kind of crazy to think about. Thank you to you and Mandy I don’t know how I would have made it without you all by my side.
Faith: I try to do better about myself. It is just still really hard for me. It is so very nice to know that I have so many people with me. I love you too!