inside.my.mind

I just spent the last hour trying to write a cover letter and I still have nothing.  I don’t know why this is so hard for me.  I don’t guess I have changed as much as I thought I had.  Right now I feel like I have thrown in a raging river and am lucky that I am still breathing.  Everything feels out of my control again.  Is this what I get for thinking I was doing good?

I know all my wonderful people are going to come tell me that I am good and what not, and I am really thankful for you all.  I really am.  I seem to be in the middle of one of those times when I am just a long for the ride.  No matter how much I would like to change the way I am feeling I can’t seem to find a way to make that happen.

Sorry in advance to anyone who has to deal with me tonight.