Apr 24 2007
Why is it?
Why is it that my Grandparents can drive to Kentucky, but have never been to my apartment?
Why is it what my Dad can drive almost all the way Atlanta to help people move, but has not been to my apartment since the day I was moving in?
Why is it that he will go to their house on Christmas, but never would for me?
Why is it that I have such problems expressing myself in person, but can put almost anything out here for the world to read?
Why is it so easy for people to give up relationships with me?
Why is it that I feel like a three year old asking so many why is it questions?
Why is it that I time goes by so slowly when I am waiting on a cretin day to get here?
Why is it that I have so many questions with no answers?
Why is it that people who are mean to children get to have them?
Why is it that I am in a strange mood right now?
Why is it that I can listen to the same CD for months and never get tired of it?
Why is it that I can hear that one voice and everything is better?
Ok that is enough questions. Sorry for so many negative one, but I did throw some good ones in the mix too. Oh wait one more.
Why is it that I feel the need to say sorry for everything that goes wrong even if it is not my fault and there is nothing that I could have done?
The person who comes up with the best answers to the most questions I will take out to eat or something. If no one answer anything then I guess I will take myself out to iHop.
Good news, no more cops have been by. Oh and just so you all know I am very disappointed by the lack of response I got to the cop thing. Maybe it was my fault, maybe I did not leave it open enough for comment.
I think it’s natural for everybody to ask why questions when we are a little down in the dumps. Thinking about “why” though only serves to keep us down even more, because if you think about it, most of those questions we will never have an answer to. Even if we did, would it make a difference? I know that for me, even if I had an answer, it wouldn’t be good enough. If it’s not an answer that satisfies me, it’s almost worse than not having an answer at all. I know what you mean though…I go through those times. We all do. I think everybody has their own “why” questions. Chin up. Life is good and underneath it all, you know that
No iHop for you!
But thank you for the comment it is some good stuff. Just does not qualify you for the prize since no questions got answers.
How have you been?
Ok, I’ll answer some questions. Time goes by slower when you are anxious about something. You are in a strange mood because you are strange
That one voice makes everything better because you love that one voice and it makes you feel safe. And, it’s easier to put things on a blog than do it in person because in person, it hurts worse if someone doesn’t agree or has bad things to say about what you are feeling. You say you’re sorry all the time for things that aren’t even your fault because you are such a good person that you don’t want anyone to get mad at you, even if you didn’t do anything to make them mad. Maybe you feel it’s easy for people to give up on relationships with you, but in fact, maybe it’s too easy for you to give up on yourself and not believe that you are worth more than what they can offer if they choose to leave you behind. You feel like a 3 year-old because all 3 year-olds like to ask “why.” Lol. There’s no excuse why people who are mean to children get to have them…except that the world is not always fair. You can listen to the same CD so much because you like it. And last but not least, you have so many questions without answers because sometimes, there just isn’t a good answer that will be good enough to warrant you feeling the way that something made you feel. You may get an answer, but it still won’t make you feel any better.
Ok, so did I answer enough? Lol. I answered the ones I could. But I don’t expect you to take me to IHOP. Lol.
Good answers. I have decided that I will give out multiple dinners so one of them is yours.
Hello! Well, I’m pretty sure we don’t know each other, but you never know. I may have sent you a comment once, but I’m not sure. I just happened upon your blog, and you sounded like a nice person. I just discovered a few minutes ago that I had put your blog in my favorites folder, hence, the reason I am again commenting on you.
Anyways, sometimes it’s good to get a perspective from someone you don’t know from Adam. Most of the time we tend to forget that we are not the only person on earth, and that most of the things that we are going through, other people are dealing with as well. You are not the only person in the world to ask “Why?” And when it comes to parents and granparents doing what it is they do, I don’t think anybody knows for sure. Your dad sounds like my mom. She lives next door, but I can count the times she has actually been inside my home in the last five years on my fingers.
My grandparents are all dead, but I’m guessing that only my mother’s mother would actually visit me, that’s because we are alot alike. I guess I should have said were, but then I’m still alive aren’t I?
As for the other questions I will be more concise:
I can verbalize much better with my fingers, too. Some people are just like that. My husband has no problem telling people just exactly how he feels at the drop of a hat. I have to think about it for awhile. It’s the “Sanguine” part of me.
About the relationship thing; I don’t know you, but I promise when “the one” comes along, she will never be able to leave you.
As for the three year old question…my youngest is four and they ask why all the time. So I guess that’s why!
Don’t know what a cretin day is….
Okay, I feel like an idiot. Certain…LOL Time only flies when you’re having fun!
If you had all the answers you would be God.
I’d like to know the answer to the children question too. I’m hoping the answer is that God does it so that compassionate people will take a stand.
Everybody else seems to think you’re strange, so I’ll go with that one too!
When you find songs that soothe you there is nothing wrong with listening all the time.
I’m guessing God has something to do with letting us have someone that when we hear their voice it makes everything better.
As for the last question, you sound just like me… Only I’m in training…
You are a peacemaker. You really care about people and what they think of you. That is why you feel the need to apologise for everything you say and do. Unfortunately that is not the definition of a peacemaker, but it is the beginnings of a doormat. Once people figure you out they tend to use you, so don’t let that happen. You’re too good a person…I can tell by the stuff you write.
I know this has been a pretty long response, but I tend to be longwinded, which is why I decided against being a preacher!
Oh! and I really love IHOP, but don’t think I’ll be able to make it up that way, so I’ll just go sometime and pretend we went together, is that okay?
So, anyways, I hope you are feeling better. God Bless You,
Kary
Everyone who answered won! IHOP party on me!