inside.my.mind

I am so glad last week is over, but wish the weekend was not. After work Friday I came home, packed, and left for the house boat. Mandy and Leah where there when I got there. We got on the boat and headed out on the lake. I love being out on the water when the sun is going down. It is so very beautiful. I love it but I always feel out of place during times like that. I know I am not in the way and no one would change anything, but I can’t help but feel like I am in the way during a great moment.

Saturday Leah’s parent came to the boat and I learned some stuff about the house boat and caught up with her parents. They are great people and I really enjoy getting to see them.

A little later in the day some more people came out and we went out on there boat with them, well I was on the jet ski most of the time, but you get the point. All the times I have ridden the jet ski I have never gotten very wet if you don’t count yesterday. I hit a wave just the right (read wrong) way and the front ended up going into a wave instead of over and I ended up being wet all over. I really need to work on my reaction time between water hitting my face and when I stop inhaling.

Today was church. Church was good. It used to be that I just followed Leah and Mandy around like a lost dog, but I have now gotten where I have a few other people that I don’t have a problem talking with. It is so hard for me to get to the point of just talking to people without freaking out and it is so nice to have the number of people I can do that with increase. Not that I am any where close to the comfort level I have with Leah and Mandy. I don’t know that I have ever felt the level of comfort that I have with them.

Here is an example. Saturday morning when I got up I when and sat on the top of the house boat and was writing. I stopped when everyone else got up. When it was time to leave Leah rode back to Nashville with me. Near the end of the driver we some how ended up talking pretty much exactly what I had been writing about that morning. This was/is stuff that weighs very heavily on my mind/heart, stuff that I pretty much don’t talk about, mostly because I am scared to let it out. I still don’t know how we managed to get on the topics but it was good to have someone else kind of see what I am thinking and not think I am stupid or a baby.