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I don’t think I mention this to you all. The Target they are building just down the road is going to be a Super Target! In case you missed it I am excited. I only hope they get it done before I move again. Best Buy used to be my favorite store, but has been replaced by Target. Get a much greater verity of product at Target.

I have to take my car downtown tomorrow morning because it has been recalled. Seems that if something hot gets in the intake and makes it to the air filter there is a fair chance that it will catch on fire. They are replacing the air filter and putting something to keep crap out of the intake.

The spoon. This spoon was a good quarter to half a mile from any where. It was just there sitting on a rock and I had to take a picture of it. You know it is funny back during the ModBlog days I remember people posting pictures all the time and I would wonder how they did it. Now I have the photo bug and find myself doing the same thing, of course you all are pretty much stuck with pictures I take on the weekends.

Just wanted to blog right fast and let everyone know that I have been working over the last couple of days so if I have not responded to something that is why. I will be late again tonight, but that should be the last night this week. I have been working on the project I am assigned to during the day and after working helping out on the stuff I used to work on. My old boss has two new people who don’t know the products yet so I said I would help him get this release finished.

Had a lot of fun this passed weekend. Had some wonderful Japanese food Friday night. Saturday and Sunday we were at Center Hill on the lake. It was good time and a good birthday weekend for Leah. The picture is on top of the house boat Saturday evening.

They have the road I normally take to work closed. They said it was going to be open on the 27th, but on the 27th they had changed the sign to the 30th. We will see how that works out. It means that I have to take the interstate in the mornings which I try my best to avoid. I have been lucky so far and have had no problems, but seems like 24 has at least one big issue a week.

Here is to hoping that to night is the last late night for awhile. I am waking up with red eyes now. That is pretty much a sign that I am getting to tried or looking at a computer for to many hours a day.

I was just checking out the stats for the blog and noticed that I must have a fan or something in Jackson. The funny thing is that I don’t know anyone in Jackson. Jackson person email I would love to know who you are.

I am petty much all packed for the weekend. Just have to make it though 8 more hours of work and then it is time for some relaxation, quality time, and pictures!

Speaking of pictures, I am going to shot a wedding for Sara and Steven in October. We have talked about it and I have agreed to do it since I am now sure that they understand that I have not idea what I am doing when it comes to shooting a wedding. It would be a fun experience and I am looking forward to trying it.

I would have written sooner, but I seem to only blog when I am alone. Sis is at work today so that means you a blog.

Last weekend I went to Cookeville to hang out with Kevin. I had a great time. Got to eat at two of the places I really miss. Dog House for lunch and House of Thai for dinner. I also got reminded of one of the best things about Cookeville, Kevin sent an email and for dinner we where joined by six other people. I only knew one of them and the others where new and a lot of fun. I think I did pretty good with the new people, in case you forgot I am not good with people, but regardless I had a good time with them all.

So far everyday this week I have had a very short fuse. I don’t know what the deal is, but every day this week something has made me angry. Not really sure what my deal is, but I hope I get over it soon.

This weekend we are going downtown for Japanese Friday night. Saturday morning we will be headed to Center Hill lake for the rest of the weekend. Should be a lot of fun! All in calibration of Leah’s upcoming birthday! Happy early birthday Leah!

Did I do something to make the world mad? As little as two weeks ago I was emailing a lot with 3 or 4 people I went to school with. Now I hear nothing form any of them. I don’t know what happen. This week I emailed someone else and no response from them either. So I am just wondering what I did to make those people stop talking to me. If anyone knows please share.

I forgot to mention this yesterday so you get a new update.

Saturday while waiting on Linda to get to Mom’s so we could go to Athens I started trying to teach myself how to juggle. Mom had three cat toys (balls with bells in them), so I pick them up and started trying to juggle. Mom and Sis laughed at me a lot, but in the end I got the basics down. I can’t keep them going very long, but it is a start.

Not that I am going to start juggling all the time or anything. Just thought I would try it.

Over all had a good time this weekend. Got to hang out with the family, Andy, Mike, and Mindy. It was good. I forget how much full they are until I get to see them again like that. I wish they did not live so far away.

We drove to Dalton Saturday to eat at the depot for Mom and Granddaddy’s birthdays. It was ok, but not some where I am going to ever be thinking that I must go back there.

Saturday night is when we drove to Athens to the old gang for a little while. It was so strange to be back in Athens. The last time I can remember being there was over a year ago when we all went to Dusty’s parents house to hang out one Saturday.

Today I went to church with Mom and Linda before I came back home. It was to a pretty large church. I forgot how nervous a church could make me. I felt so out of place. It was new so I am not surprised. Seemed like a pretty good church, just not what I am used to anymore.

Saturday on the way back from Dalton I ask everyone in the car if it would be ok if we dropped by Dad’s to say hi. They all said it would be fine. I called and ask what they were up to. He said they had got bored of sitting around the house and where out driving (on the way to Athens from Cleveland for those keeping track). I said oh and told him that I was thinking of stopping by and just wanted to see what they are up to. I then said well ok I will let you go then. He said ok and we hung up.

Now for the drive time explication. It is well over two hours to get back to Nashville from Cleveland. Pretty much the whole time I was thinking about the whole Dad thing I just told you about. It hurt me a lot. The last time I saw them was July 7th. I don’t have kids, but I hope I am pretty sure I am safe saying that if I had not see mine in over a month I don’t care what I was doing I would drop it and make a 15 minute drive to see them. I don’t know what I am thinking, because I know I would, I was going to drive over an hour to go pick up one of our kids from church so he would not have to miss the camping trip, so I know I would do it for my own.

The drive time was much to long for me to have something like that on my mind. I fought my self over what I have done wrong, why I am not worth that 15 minute drive. Should I have straight up ask? Am I a bad son? Why would he not jump to get to see me? Why do I still let this get to me? Thoughts like that pretty much over clouded the goodness of the weekend.

On a more pleasant front, I used the Andy cure for poison and I am pretty much no longer itching. Now I just have to wait for the wounds to heal and I will be all set.

Where is my person to tell me what to do in this situation? I have done a bad thing. I got the computer I want all picked out and added to a wish list. Now it is sitting there looking at me, calling out my name. I could get it now with credit and no interest for six months. Really the six months with no interest is the only thing that has changed since my last entry and it is making it very hard to resist.

Anyway I don’t do good in situations like that. I am always torn and need someone to tell me what the best thing to do is. So tell me what to do!

I am going to go pack and not think about this for a while.

Headed back to Cleveland this weekend for a couple of birthdays. Mom and Granddaddy where both born on August 10th. I am not sure if I am going to head down Friday night or wait until Saturday morning yet. I will end up going Friday night I bet, but we will see.

This is another picture from the camping trip in case you where wondering. I took this during my lone walk Saturday morning. I surprised myself and got a few good picture of some people, but they don’t make it on the internet so you will just have to take my word for it.

Got stuff picked out for a new computer last night. I can’t get it yet, it will be at least a couple of months. I am sure by then I will have to go back and pick out all new parts.

This past weekend was the camping trip with the kids from church. I had a really good time. We were at Montgomery Bell state park. It is a very nice park and got to see some really cool stuff that I did not know was there before this weekend.

By the time I got there Friday night camp was all set up so I got off pretty easy. Everyone got there over the next couple of hours. We played in the creek looking for things to catch, did some crafty stuff, had hot dogs, and all kinds of other stuff.

Lou, Leah, Kirsten, and I all stayed up pretty late, 12:30ish I think it was talking (mostly them) about all kinds of stuff. I really enjoyed it even if I am lacking in the communication. After everyone else went to be I walked out to this big field with a flash light and spent thirty or so minutes writing and thing to get the stuff out of my head. I wish I was able to join in the conversation more. I want to be able to share on the same level everyone else was, but it just does not work for me. It was not because I was not comfortable with any of them, in fact they are some of the people I am most comfortable with.

Saturday we had breakfast, played with some water balloons, and went fishing (I went off on my own taking pictures while everyone else was fishing), then we had lunch, and back to the creek to try and catch some more stuff.

This last trip to the creek was the most interesting. Near the end I hear something on the bank. I am expecting to look up and see some small furry creature, but instead I am faced with a long scaly one with a frog in it’s mouth. I order everyone out of the creek and we head back to camp, which has been dismantled while we were gone.

It was good times and I wished it could have lasted longer. I hope we get to do it again at some point. Big thanks for Leah and Mandy for all there hard work, you all did a wonderful job!