Jan 09 2008
Busyness
I think things might finally be slowing down a bit. Seems like I have been running around like a chicken with my head cut off for the last few weeks. Been in and out of town, work has been crazy, my mind is all over the place. Some really good times and some really bad.
I think the huge push that was going on at work will be over for a while after this week is over, of course another will take its place, but I am hoping for a week or two break. I don’t have any plans to leave town again in the next few weeks. Bring on the calmness!
It is crazy to think that this time two years ago my life changed in a crazy way that I had hoped to never experience. That has been on my mind a lot the last few weeks, but I guess that is to be expected around this time of year. I have changed a lot in the last two years, at least I think I have. Who knows what you all think. I feel so different, but at the same time I don’t. It really is hard to explain how I think of myself. Not really something I would want you all to see anyway.
I was so happy to be back at my church this past weekend. I had missed it so very much. I got to see most of the people I wanted, including a good portion of my kids. It is hard to catch everyone in the same week, so maybe this coming weekend I can see the rest of them. It is crazy how much comfort that place provides for me. There are so many wonderful people there, most of who I don’t know anywhere as much as I would like. I am very thankful for all of them.
Speaking of not knowing people like I would like. That seems to be a recurring theme in my life. It is not because I don’t want to know people better I just don’t know how to go about it. It take a really long time for me to get to know people and most people don’t bother. I would love to be able to go up and talk to just anyone, but I just don’t seem to work that way. When I am around most people I want to talk and have a good time, but I can’t seem to do it, I am trapped inside of me and very little can get out. It is such a frustrating feeling. People seem to think that I would prefer to play game or something to sitting around talking to people, but that is far from the truth. I will shut up now I am sure that will not make sense to anyone but me.
A coworker let me borrow the Bourne movies so I am hopping to watch them at some point this weekend. I have seen the first two already, but am going to watch them again as a refresher. It should be much fun.