Jan 27 2008
Dances with wolves
The weekend report. Friday hung out with Sis. Watched a movie or two and had some food. It was fun and nice to get and spend some time with her.
Saturday I was up at six. I tried my best to sleep more, but it just would not happen. I am not really sure what has gotten in to me, but I have been trying to sleep a lot more. When I wake up I try and make myself go back to sleep. Not really sure what that is all about, but I think I would rather go back to jumping up out of bed instead of try to sleep all the time. After I finally rolled myself out of bed I took a shower and went to do a bit of shopping that I had to get out of the way. Food and a few other misc. things that I have been needing, nothing that is any fun.
Saturday night we went to a church thing. Once a month different groups from all over town go to peoples house to eat and hang out. It was mostly a good time. The only bad part is we played one of those game where you have to do things to get people to guess whatever evil thing happens to be on the card you got. Need less to say I made a huge fool out of myself many times during this game. I turn red thinking about it. One of the ones I had to do was Dances With Wolves and I had to do it without speaking. Everyone laughed at my attempt at dancing for a really long time.
Today was church. During the second service, the time which I spend helping with the children, I was in the nursery with one of our host from Saturday night. We were talking and some how we got to talking about me being shy. To my surprise she disagreed with me, but the more that I think about it the more I can see how she would have been surprised. We had met a couple of weeks before when she worked in the nursery for the first time. When I am in the nursery I have the kids and I act crazy and could careless about what else is going on. In general I am pretty comfortable at church and have my people that I can talk to. I have never really thought about it before today, but if someone sees me in that setting they would get a false sense of me. That does not exactly sound right. It is me that they would see, but I am really not out going. It freaks me out that people could see me as out going when it is far from what I am. If they saw me some when I was uncomfortable there is not telling what they would think. I have no idea if this is coming out where anyone else can understand it.
After church we met Leah’s parents and they bought us a very tasty lunch. I always like seeing Leah’s parent they are good people and I really enjoy getting to spend time with them.
I understand what you are saying. I don’t feel you are being false to who you are by any means. You are able to relax and let down your walls when you are around the kids. SO to me while you are preoccupied with the kids, you don’t let your fears control your actions. All is good my man! I love people see you at your best during those times. Ever thought this is why so many people fall in love with you while you are with the kids??? I mean seriously!?! Are you following me?