inside.my.mind

I have been dreaming again.  Sunday night I was out hiking in a beautiful mountainous area.  The sky was so very blue, with no clouds to be found as I walked along small clear river.  It was such a perfect place.  Then the rednecks came and tried to kill me.  I spent the rest of the night running instead of being able to enjoy this wonderful place I was in.  I did not wake up very rested on Monday morning.

I have not been having to work quite as much as I was, but can’t seem to snap out of this slump I seem to be in.  I have been in worse so I am sure I will snap out of it at some point.  Some people are not helping with the things they are doing, but they are completely clueless about the effect they are having.

Freedom Writers is a great movie.  I just finished watching it and really enjoyed it.  I know it has to be the nice friendly version of what happen, but it is still a wonderful movie that I really recommend you watching.

If I can ever get my host’s support team to believe I am who I say I am the blog maybe undergoing a few changes.  Should not be anything you all will notice, just trying to get moved to a server with some newer software on it.  I have it in my head that I am going to play with some of it, but who knows if that will really happen or not, but I know I will be more likely to do it if I am on the latest stuff verses trying to learn an older version of the technology.

I should be in bed right now, but I am not.  I don’t want to go to bed.  I want to stay up all night and sleep all day tomorrow.  I don’t know why.  Just like I want to blog right now, but no idea about what.

Has anyone ever noticed that the old you get the faster time seems to pass?  I have been aware of this sensation for a long time.  I have noticed that it has gotten a lot worse since I started working.  It gets harder and harder for one day to stand out from all the others.

Life rushes on and seems to not move at the same time.  I wonder if anyone else knows what that statement means.

Sis’s birthday was today so Mom is coming up this weekend to spend time with us.  It being Sis’s birthday I got talked in to stuff I would not normally do.  Mom is going to come to church Sunday which will be the first time she has come to my church.  I think she will like it.  I will be there for both services, but I am not sure which Mom and Sis are coming to, but they said they are coming to one of them.  I am excited about it.

I guess I have rambled on enough.  Time for bed I guess.

I am going to have a rant party if you can’t tell by the title, so consider this your warning.

I was sitting here today watching a movie (yet another that I had to read!) and the phone rang.  It was my boss and he was at work and had some questions about how to do something.  Not a big deal at all and I did not mind helping him out.  Before he goes he mentions that the own, who for the rest of this store will be known as the man, was a little bit upset that I had left at four (the time that I should get off, to make sure that is clear) the last two days.  I have left work on time no more than 5 or 6 time this YEAR and the man is upset that I am leaving on time?  You are going to love this part, on Monday or Tuesday I requested to leave ON TIME Thursday and Friday because I had plans.  How screwed up is it that I have to request to leave ON TIME and the man gets upset about it?  Am I missing something here?  If we are in a tight spot it is because the man wants one and half people to do the work of five.

Needless to say right now I am over flowing with frustration right now.

I woke up and went to work this morning like always.  I had been at work for maybe an hour when I notice that it is snowing.  It snowed really good for awhile.  The parking lot was covered and pretty looking.  Hours later when I get off work it is mostly melted and it is dark.  Could have been some good pictures, but no.  I am hoping that some of the flickr friends got some shots.

I have started not sleeping very well again.  When I lay down I can’t get to sleep and after I do I end up waking up at least 10 minutes before my alarm goes off.  I have been waking up looking at the time and then trying my hardest to sleep for that 10 minutes.  Seems stupid I know, but at the time all I want to do is go back to sleep.

Today was one of my coworkers last days.  About five I went up to say bye.  They were leaving so they did not care what they said it was funny to hear them talk about some of the things that go on at that place.  Another one of those people I wish I could have known better, but group lunches are going to take place if everyone does as they say.

So I don’t know if you have looked at flickr, but I took a couple of pictures.  Not really happy with any of the ones I took, but the two I posted where the best of the bunch.  Feel like I am a photo rut or something.

Saturday evening/night we build a fire! The temperature was great for it. I don’ t know what it is but I alway have liked poking around a fire. I remember when Dad used to make me go “camping” with him and his friends. Fire was fun back then, but I did not stay around it since it was always surrounded by drunk adults.

Sunday I finally joined the church. About time right? I thought so too.

I am feeling better than I was.  I still don’t feel the best in the world, but I no longer feel light headed walking from my desk to the bathroom at work.  The stairs to the apartment are still pretty unfriendly at this point, but getting better.

Speaking of work, this week is almost over.  Next week the boss will be back and I can get back to getting some work done.  Seems like every five minutes I am getting an email or phone call about something.  I have been told so many different things that I need to do that I have no idea if I have lost track of anything or not.  It would take a lot of getting used to if I have to handle all this stuff all the time.  It was two hours after I got to work this morning before I finally got to work on anything that counts.

I have netflix.  I some how keep getting movies that are not in English.  I have had to read at least 4 or 5 movies in the past month.  I watched  City of God tonight, of course not in English, but a good movie none the less.  Come to think of it I think I have like all the non-English movies I was just fussing about.  The one tonight makes me want to get out and take some pictures.

Interesting weekend. Don’t think anything went as planed, but that is ok I guess. Saturday met family in Cookeville for lunch. After that met Mandy and Leah and Leah’s parents for a little bit. After that I had to be back in Nashville for a little get together for Sidda’s third birthday.

When I got to Opery Mills I was getting out of the car about to grab my camera when I thought to myself it is just for dinner I will not need it. Huge mistake. I missed so many good pictures because I was stupid and did not bing my camera in. So now I am stuck with nothing but crappy cell phone pictures.

My head is completely stopped up. I can’t sleep as much as I would like because I wake up not being about to get a enough air. I don’t like this one bit. If that was not bad enough the boss is out at work this coming week and I really do not need to miss. We will see how it goes.

I am going to take some medicine and go to bed.