Aug 04 2008
Grr
I am still disappoint, hurt, and even pissed off. I don’t like feeling like this, especially for this long. It make the rest of life so much harder to live. I find myself getting so very frustated over little things, or maybe big things that I have always made out to be nothing. I want so scream … at the top of my lungs, but I can’t.
Why can’t I? Why do I always have to worry about so many other things? Why is it that when I make chocies that are right, albeit not easyest for me, things seem to not work out or someone else gets the benifit with no thought of me at all. I know I sound like a brat…but this is how I feel. It is like I am beating my head on a concret wall, thinking if I hit it just one more time it might break, although it is me breaking and not the wall.
Don’t you miss the times when I just did not bother to blog? On a more plesent note, I have been able to run again. I ran Friday night, Saturday morning, and tonight. I am hoping that it will help get rid of some of this crap that I have built up inside.
Life is not all bad. I just have a focus problem…maybe. I wish I was better at writing about good things.