inside.my.mind

So I went to Best Buy today and played with the XSI again and I think I have changed my mind about it.  Plus with all the money I will save I can buy some glass.  Not, at final decision at this point, but XSI is back on top…for now.

My visit to the doctor’s office went pretty good.  He prescribed me an anti-inflammatory and is going to have me do some physical therapy.  So next Wednesday evening I will be back at the hospital for some physical therapy, which I have never had before so I am a bit nervous about that.

What really sucks about this whole thing is that I was really looking forward to running my first 5k on October 4th, but that is not going to happen now.  I am still going to go and walk it if that is allowed.

I can’t remember if I mentioned it or not, but the church is doing this big study, with small groups, on The Purpose Driven Life.  It is a really good book and I have been though it before.  I am just not doing so good with the whole thing this time around.  Right now I am really struggling to stay connected.  I want to withdraw and be alone, but I know that is not what I need to do.  We are in the section about staying connected with God’s family which make it oh so much better that I want to just run away.  I really don’t know what is making me want to pull away, not just from church but from people in general.  I am hoping it is just stress and now that I am getting something done about my knee that things will get better.  I just have to try and make sure I don’t find away to keep myself in my apartment and away from the world.

Saludos amigo, enemigos, espías, y las personas al azar en internet.  It has been awhile since I blogged, obviously and as a result I am sure this is going to be one of those post that are all over the place.

I guess I will start with a health update.  A few weeks ago I ran three and a half miles, which I was very excited about, but as soon as I stopped running my knee started killing me.  I have rested it and over the last few weeks have tried to run and every time I do it starts hurting me again.  I can make it about a quarter of mile before I have to stop.  I have an appointment on Tuesday to have it checked out.  I am really hoping and praying that they will tell me what is wrong and how to fix it, but I also am extremely worried that they are going to give me some really bad news and I will not be able to run any more.  I am trying to not run away with the thought that I might not be able to run anymore, but I think about it a lot more than I should.

Work has been pretty stressful lately.  The boss has been out some and is going to be out more than a week in October.  I am always so very stressed out when he is not there, but nothing can really be done about that.  Some good news, the new guy seems like he is going to work out.  He has been there since Mayish and is still around so I think that is a very good sign.

I finally got out and took some pictures last weekend.  I have been a complete slacker and had not taken any pictures in what seems like two months.  I am going to try and get back into shooting again.  I really enjoy it a lot, and with running out I have to have some way to take care of some of the stress I have building up.  I am still debating if I should upgrade to a DSLR or not.  Canon has come out with a ton of new camaras in the last few months.  I was really leaning toward the XSI, but I really don’t like the way it feels.  The grip is just not deep enough for my hand which is really uncomfortable.  The next option is 40D/50D, but I just don’t know if I should take that leap or not.  I am still weighing it all out.  The good news is if I do get a DSLR I know it will easily last me more that a couple of years, so I have to keep that in mind.

Past all that I have really been struggling lately.  The issues with my knee are not only worrying me, but it is also making me angry, so much so that I can’t talk to anyone right after I try running.  In case you don’t know me it is very rare to see me truly angery, but my knee can take me from fine to very pissed off in about two and a half minutes (the amount of time I can run before the pain starts).  I don’t know if it is just my knee or a combonation of it and everything else that is going on in my life.  All I do know is that I don’t like it one bit, I have never been an angry person and I don’t want to start now.

On a lighter note, we are taking the youth to see Switchfoot, Third Day, and Jars of Clay tonight.  Should be fun.  I don’t know whose idea it was to have a concert on a Sunday night, but as long as the youth has a good time I can handle being tired at work tomorrow.