inside.my.mind

So life continues. Rolling right a long. Mostly the same. Moments of happiness and moments of depression. It is kind of funny how they can happen in the same moment, which is not mostly the same. That one is new.

Why are people mean? What drives us to hurt other people? Why must we strike out and hurt the ones who love us just because we are having a bad time? Does it really make us feel better when we drag someone we love down with us? Does it help? Relationships can only take so much of that, so next time you are going to say something you know will be hurtful take a second and think if it will really be worth it to crush a loved one in a petty attempt to make yourself feel better.

I don’t really have a whole lot to say. I did not get off work until 5:30 tonight and was a slacker and skipped my workout. I don’t guess it really matters since it does not seem to be doing anything for me, although if I keep going at the rate I am now I might make a world record for gaining and losing the same half a pound over and over again.

I closed my account with Regions bank last week. It has been just sitting there for the last 3 or 4 months making sure I had everything cancelled that was coming out of it. I was sad to see it go. I got that account the day I moved to Cookeville my freshmen year of collage. It also happened to be my first checking account ever. They were Union Planters when I first signed up. They had a much better website back in those days.

Does anyone have an opinion one way or another on the iPod Nano? I am thinking of getting one to help pass the time when (if) I workout.

Steven and Ashley’s baby was born Friday June 2 at 1:46 PM. He weighed 7 pounds and 5 ounces. I went to see them on Saturday.

He was amazing. That little life just laying in my arms. I don’t know how to describe it other than amazing. There is nothing in the world like it. I would have held him all day if had not felt bad about holding him so much.

Don’t you just love long weekends? They are great! I don’t know how long it has been since I have had a day off what was not for something bad. So, woohoo for day off that is not bad!

Saturday I went to Center Hill Lake with Leah, Melissa, and Leah’s parents. We had a wonderful time! Ok the sunburn is not that wonderful, but other than that it was a great time. I got to drive a boat around for a few hours. Who knew that could be so relaxing. I guess it helps to be hanging out with people that I don’t feel any pressure from and can just enjoy myself.

I don’t know how to classify this as good or bad or what, but I finally got Leslie to sign the check I got for the money we had remaining in the escrow account. Best I can think, I do not believe I will have any reason I have to talk to Leslie again. She seems to be doing good. Don’t guess it is as hard to get over something when you are the one who is doing the leaving. I don’t know if that is true or not. I hope it helps knowing that I will not have to see her.

It was good, but I think the first two were better. If you go watch it don’t forget to stay after the movie until the credits are finished. You will be sad if you don’t. I would say more, but I don’t want to screw it up for anyone.

It always amazes me how simple it is to slip back into the darkness. A phone call, a movie, a song, a picture.

I thought this was pretty interesting. It is kind of cool to look back and see how far we have made it in just a few decades.

I am sure everyone has head of The Da Vinci Code by now. I am also sure you have heard people talking bad about it. Kind of how some people are about Harry Potter. I don’t get what the big deal is. They are both works of FICTION. I quote M-W: 1 a : something invented by the imagination or feigned; specifically : an invented story.

Did you see that? Fiction is something that is made up. It is an invented story. So what I want to know is why people get so upset about fiction. I could see the problem if it was not clear that something was fiction, but most of the time this stuff is clearly marked. Maybe I am missing something, if I am someone please tell me what it is.

Why do people do stupid things? Why is it that we can get so lost in whatever situation we happen to be in that we don’t stop to thing about how stupid we are being? I am saying we, because this is a people thing in general and I am not talking about anything in particular.

I don’t think it is just me that does things like this. It is just strange how our brains can get so focused on one that we don’t care about anything else. It is bad, well a lot of the time it is bad. I can be a good thing, but more often that not it is trouble.

Wish there was a good way to guard against letting this happen when you don’t want it to, but it always seems to be to late by the time you think about all the repercussions of an action.

I had a pretty good weekend. Sis and I left Friday after I got of work. Her tires were really bad so we were lucky to make it alive, but we did. Got suck in traffic for an hour about the time we were about 15 minutes from Granny’s, but we still had fun. Then it was bed time.

Saturday drove the grandparents’ Mustang around most of the day. Hung out with Dusty and Andy a little bit.

Sunday grandparents came home and spent a little bit of time with them. Good times when I could keep my brain off bad stuff.

Well tomorrow would have been our fourth anniversary.

Here is a song that pretty much sums everything up minus the know its not my fault part.

Everything You Ever Wanted - Hawk Nelson

I walk the line
Leave it all behind
I’ve been waiting forever
Lets go back in time
When I could read your mind
Still I’ve been waiting

It took the seasons going by
To know its not my fault

I tried to be perfect, tried to be honest
Tried to be everything that you ever wanted
I tried to be stronger, tried to be smarter
Tried to be everything but you

Its been so long
Since you’ve been home
I used to wait up forever
I used to say a prayer
Wishing you were there
And I’m still waiting

You told me once
You’d show up
But I fell for that
Before I fell to pieces
Then I woke up
To no one,
Just a picture of Jesus
And a house left in pieces

It took the seasons going by
To know its not my fault

I tried to be perfect, tried to be honest
Tried to be everything that you ever wanted
I tried to be stronger, tried to be smarter
Tried to be everything but you

I wanted you
I need you
I want to believe you
I wanted you
I need you
I want to believe you

I tried to be perfect, tried to be honest
tried to be everything but you

I tried to be perfect, tried to be honest
Tried to be everything that you ever wanted
I tried to be stronger, tried to be smarter
Tried to be everything but you