http://elemak.net Fri, 16 May 2008 02:06:37 +0000 http://backend.userland.com/rss092 en I just got back from dinner with my small group, Mexican in case what we consumed is of interest.  I remember how nervous I was the first time I attended the group, as is normal for me, but now it is different.  I am pretty comfortable about some of the ... http://elemak.net/2008/05/15/how-far/ I am really not ready to go back to work...nothing strange about that really, but this time is worse. I think it is because of what I am working on. I have been working on it for pretty much a full week and still have at least another ... http://elemak.net/2008/05/11/not-yet/ This weekend was very busy and very exhausting.  I did not want to do anything yesterday.  Today is a little better, but not a lot.  It was all worth it to raise money for the youth.  We did pretty well, but still have more to raise. Saturday we helped setup for ... http://elemak.net/2008/05/06/still-exhausted/ What a week I have had so far.  Seems like when I think it will not, or can't, get any worse something else happens.  Today I had a nice huge guilt trip laid on me.  I really don't handle them well.  Today I almost when off when I heard what ... http://elemak.net/2008/04/30/still-here-2/ This week seems to be full of realizations that I never wanted.  Things keep working themselves into my head and I can't make it stop.  I was to the point where I was able to filter out the negative thinks I say about myself.  Now I am feeling more worthless ... http://elemak.net/2008/04/29/realize/ I know I am never going to be able to find the words to adequately convey my day.  I do believe that this has been the hardest day I have had in the last couple of years.  I lost count of the number of times I just started crying.  Though ... http://elemak.net/2008/04/27/what-happens-when-dreams-fail/ For the third day this week I attempted a run, it is more like a jog, and I have come to the conclusion that my lungs hate me.  When I was a child and teenager I had a lot of breathing problems.  I thought they were pretty much all gone, ... http://elemak.net/2008/04/23/my-lungs-hate-me/ What do you do when you want to help, but don't know what to do?  How do you get someone to believe that you really do want to be there to help and are not just saying it to be nice?  I have multiple people in my life right now ... http://elemak.net/2008/04/22/lockdown/ If you remember I said I was going to read some Jules Verne. Well today I finished the collection I was reading. It contained Twenty Thousand Leagues Under the Sea, The Mysterious Island, Journey to the Center of the Earth, and Around the World in Eighty Days. ... http://elemak.net/2008/04/21/unknown/ This was the weekend of music.  Friday night church had song writers' night.  Bryon Rice and Charles Green performed they were both very good.  I really enjoy those nights at church and getting to hear new artists.  I hope they keep it up. Saturday we were going to go to the ... http://elemak.net/2008/04/20/musical/